Let's do a recap of the year. January i lost someone that was a good friend and most of the time a good partner. February i removed someone from my home that was bringing me down for far to long. March my lost friend was totally out of my life and i finally was willing to allow myself to move on. April found out that my lost friend had been pulling the wool over my eyes for months. It was heart breaking. It had been the first time in my life that i had allowed someone into my heart other then my children. I ended up in the hospital with a major anxiety attack. I look back and see it as a good thing. I allowed myself to open my heart big enough to be hurt and survived. I also found these lumps on my neck that hurt and had been there. It started out a few months before and i just thought it was acne. Found out that it was folliculitis. I went through two rounds of antibotics to get rid of it. Have a few scars on my neck to remind me of it, other then that it's gone. In May i was having a lot of pain in my lower abdominal. I went in for tests and the found nothing. I had also found a lump in my left breast. Had a mammogram and a ultrasound they said it was just a cyst. They said they could remove it or just wait. I decided to wait. It is still there but it hasn't gotten any bigger. June i went back for my scheduled pap because of the hpv they had found last November. December last year they did a biopsy and wasn't concerned. Well now they found that it had progressed so in July had another biopsy. This time they became concerned. I ended up having surgery to remove a third of my cervix to get rid of all the cancer cells. I was told they got it all, but would have to have paps every 6 months. So, thinking that would take care of the pain i was having i went on as usual. September i collapsed at work from pain in my abdomen. I went to the hospital and was told i had 4 kidney stones. Had been kidney stone free for 7 years. Two weeks later i had surgery to remove them. I had surgery on Tuesday and back to work on Wednesday. I can say i have no more pain in my abdomen now. lol October i went in for testing for chronic fatigue cause i was wanting to sleep a lot again and didn't feel rested when i did. I knew that my thyroid was stable so my doctor thought this was the way to go cause of my sister and aunt. Found out that i had mono a year or so ago. It wasn't caught because everything was always blamed on my thyroid. I was told that after someone has mono you can have affects of it show up off and on for months to years after. It has gotten better. November has just been different. The year isn't over, but i'm sure it will be interesting no matter what happens.
The year has been a struggle money wise and i have been doing my best to get things more stable. It hasn't been easy and i had to give up on some of my dreams i had for myself this year. With child support not an option at this time i have had to get really creative in the money area. It's just another chapter in life.
So, with all that has taken place this year i am still excited to see what 2011 has in store for me. I believe it will be a good year. I just have one hope for myself next year and that's to have someone to share it with.
