Days that could be bad

I woke up this morning late for work.  I didn't sleep well and my whole body was hurting for some reason.  I had a little bit of vertigo and a little bit of brain fog.  I wasn't going to let it beat me so i got my butt up.  I went into work an hour late, but i kept telling myself not to let it win.  I made it through the day and i stayed in a good mood the whole time.  The power of positive thinking and just plain determination.  I can't allow and won't allow this to keep ruining my life.  Days that want to take over will have to just give up.

I had my ultrasound last night and i will get the test results in a few days.  This i'm sure is going to be a good thing. 

Well, i haven't talked about symptoms or things that trigger it in a while.  I was reading the other day a was amazed by the different things.  Diet is one thing if you consume quantities of any of the following foods:  brussel sprouts, rutabaga, turnips, radishes, cauliflower, cabbage, kale, soy products, horseradish, mustard, corn, broccoli, carrots, peaches, strawberries, peanuts, and spinach.  Clinical signs are as follows:  irregular heartbeat, coarse hair, dry skin, yellowish skin, pale lips, puffiness around eyes, and dull facial expressions.  I read the thing on dull facial expressions and it got me think.  I have people ask me if everything is ok quite often, 99% of the time everything is fine.  I wonder if at times i have that dull expression look.  That would explain a lot.  Aches and pains that one can have is stiffness in joints, hands, and feet.  It also said pain in the ball of the foot.  I have that quite often.  It might be the illness and the work that i do.

I find that the more i learn about this illness the better i get.  It helps knowing what to change in my life, my diet, and my attitude.  I never realized how much stress was affecting the illness and my life.  I was always worried about taking care of others first and get around to me when there's time.  I now make myself first priority.  I don't neglect the others in my life that need me.  I just have made them do more for themselves.  I say no a lot more and don't feel guilty.  I have set more boundaries.  Still working on a few things that i struggle with, but baby steps. 

I will end this with my life is my own and what i do with it is my choice.  I can be your best friend or your worst enemy that's your choice.  I won't allow an illness or others to take it from me.  The Teresa i once was is back and i believe even better.  It's been a fight and i have had many obstacles over the last couple of year.  I won't look back anymore just ahead. 

To know when to be generous and when firm―that is wisdom.

Elbert Hubbard

I believe this quote is the most fitting for this entry.