Links and other stuff

     I started reading this book called Living well with Hypothyroidism, what your doctor doesn't tell you...that you need to know.  I have to say it's be very helpful.  It's written by Mary J. Shomon she has thyroid disease so she understands the struggles to find the information one needs.  I suggest you educate yourself, this will be the best thing you do for you.

     Here is some websites i've went to and have found helpful:
              www. thyroid-info.com
              www.thyroid.about.com
              www.dailystrength.org
              www.mdjunction.com

     Here are some books that i also have read or found that several people recommend:


     Overcoming Thyroid Disorders

     The Thyroid Solution: A Mind-Body Program for Beating Depression and    
     Regaining Your Emotional and Physical Health

     The Thyroid Diet: Manage Your Metabolism for Lasting Weight Loss

     Why do I still have thyroid symptoms?

     feeling fat, fuzzy, or frazzled?

     Depression & Your thyroid: What you need to know

     I have said how much things have changed for me the biggest is my ability to let things that i can't control not take over my life.  I slip sometimes, but i remind myself that it's ok.  The only failure is if i stay down.  My weight is the other big thing for me.  I felt so fat and unattractive for far to long.  At my heaviest i weighed 223 that was in January of 2008.  I worked on it and i lost 30 pounds.  That was all i was able to lose for about a year.  Then i started back on the thyroid medication in February of 2009.  I lost another 10 pounds and i couldn't seem to lose anymore.  I remember having comments made to me about my weight and my chin.  It's one thing when you have a problem with you, but when someone that means something to you makes a comment.  I have to say this affected me in many ways.  I found myself getting more and more depressed about my weight and me as a person.  I would have good days.  The bad days seemed to take over after awhile.  I saw that the thyroid medicine was helping with my fatigue, headaches, and vertigo.  So, in my head i believed that if i give it time it will take care of the depression, weight loss, and brain fog.  This is really were i was wrong.  I would see small steps towards these things and tell myself that i was right, time will take care of these things.  Then the holidays came along, i struggled with my weight more, i struggled with the people in my life, and i struggled with myself.  I would have days where i thought i was worthless and the people in my life seemed to want more of me.  It all hit hard between Christmas and New Years.  I called my doctor and discussed the things that was happening.  I was told let what a couple of weeks and maybe after the holidays it will work it's self out.  I did that it didn't work.  I called again then went in and said i need some antidepressants.  At this point i decided that i needed to educate myself more.  I was allowing others to dictate my life and my health.

     Well, with educating myself my life has improved.  I have lost almost all the weight i have wanted to.  I have more energy, like myself again, and numerous other things have changed for the good.  I'm down to 152 pounds and i want to be between 135 and 145 so i'm very close to my goal.  I have me back and i won't allow her to go away again.

     I believe in me and how things will only get better from here on out.  To those that have tried to sabotage my progress whether you was doing it on purpose or not.  I have to tell you that you didn't succeed and you have made me stronger.  Taking all the negative energy and turning it into nothing but positive.