Just another day

Well it's just another day.  I had a great day at work and watched Stryker at baseball practice.  I woke up running late, but made it to work on time.  I would let get to me before.  I just find it's just another day in the life i lead.  I realize now that i can't do anything, but except these things.  I am going to have a hard time getting up sometimes, i am going to be fatigued, i am going to feel unfocused at times, and i am going to get through it.  I had to make changes in my life and changes to my attitude about this illness. 


I was letting the illness run me and i worried more about others then i should have.  I needed to worry about me and mine.  I have always been a giver and i rarely would ask for help.  I find now that i need to ask for that help, i need to rest at times, i need to write lists, i need to say no, and i have excepted it.  I find sometimes it's not easy being that i don't have anyone around most of the time, but the boys.  They have stepped up and do a lot for me.  Other times i just make a call or just push my way through. 


I started journaling many years ago.  I have notebooks and journals from many times in my life.  The other day i realized that they were times that my life wasn't going quite so well.  Then i read this article the other day that said write 3 things your thankful for in your life everyday.  Then when you feel like things aren't going well go to the list to remind you.  So, starting from that day forward i write down 3 things i'm thankful for on that day or 3 things that was positive on that day.  Instead of journaling only when things are going wrong i journal now when things are going right too.  Life is a mixture of both. 

I read a quote today that touched me "Guard your good mood"~Meryl Streep.  I find that fitting cause i have been doing that.  I deserve a great life and i see it just ahead.  So, guess my just another day is more about how i will keep on track and what i'm doing to stay that way.

"Do what you feel in your heart to be right. You'll be criticized anyway." -- Eleanor Roosevelt