Energy has returned

     I remember when i had barely had any energy to get myself out of bed.  I took naps almost everyday and when i didn't i couldn't focus the next day.  I would get vertigo on many of those days that i didn't get any sleep and i remember not wanting to talk to anyone.  Everything seemed to be a chore.  Some of the simplest of task seemed to frustrate me.  I hated feeling that way and i thought i would never be normal again.

     For the last 3 months i have gotten my old self back and my energy back.  I don't want to sleep all the time and i have only taken maybe 2 naps in that whole time.  I don't feel like everything is a struggle and i enjoy talking to people again.  I find not hiding my illness and embracing it has been the best thing i could have ever done for myself.  I believe it has made my life and the life of those i love much easier.  I don't feel like a burden and they don't feel the need to take care of me.  I think that was the thing i worried about the most was becoming a burden to someone.

     I have embraced the energy i have and finished projects that i had put off.  My house has went from having so many projects going to just a few left to be done.  I wake up at 4am every morning without an alarm.  I like that i wake up feeling rested.  I hadn't felt that in about 2 years. So, here's to energy and life that has gotten better.  I look forward to how it will keep improving.  Improving is the only option I am willing to take.